Thankful

I am thankful for:
my family
friends
my first house
my canine companion, Boo
being the first in the family to graduate from college
a good job
a car that doesn't break down all the time
my heritage
sunny days
brownies :-)
change of seasons
the many life lessons that have made me who I am
high culture experiences
down home country experiences
a bed in which to sleep (I've been without this many times in life)
the knowledge and faith that my health will improve
random silly things that make me laugh
time off work
the thousands of people I've met through my life
the functioning of all my senses that allow me to enjoy these things
my salvation experience and spiritual faith that is constantly being challenging and strengthened.

More to come...

Don't Crowd Me

I don't like crowds.  More specifically, I don't like crowds of people who I know in a setting where I'm expected to mingle and have continuing conversations...aka...a party.  Weird thing is, I like throwing parties.  I like hosting.  I love planning large events.  But, I'd rather throw it and watch other people get to know each other.  I don't like not having to do anything at the event other than make nice.  I know that makes me sound horrible.  And, I don't know why I'm like this.  There's times when I'm so lonely it hurts.  But, I'd rather just "hang out" with a couple of people.  Even if we go to a crowded place.  I can even effectively and enjoyably meet new people in a large crowd...as long as I don't have to have a long conversation with them about myself.

Actually, I can probably guess why this is.  It's not something I like to think about.  And, I'm not sure that I want it to change.  But, I know I'm often misinterpreted as a snob, boring, upity, or standoffish.  And, I know I don't want to be seen as that kind of person.

Quick! HIDE!!!

My birthday's tomorrow.  If I don't go to sleep, isn't it still technically today?  Ergo, tomorrow doesn't happen.  Ergo, my birthday doesn't happen.  Ergo, I don't get older.  I think I like it.